The Final Chapter

In spite of our agreement that we would stay in touch, boi failed to do so, and in fact just disappeared for months and months.

When he reappeared and I after I stopped yelling at him, he had this story to tell:

• His HIV + bf turned out to be a crystal meth addict.
• He himself soon began to use
• He became addicted himself (a natural outcome)
• He started to miss work
• He stopped going to the HIV clinic
• He got fired
• He could not get another job
• He was kicked out of his aunts house cause he was using and would not stop
• His family gave up on him for the 4th time in his life.
• He cheated, lied and hurt all those that used to love him
• He was committed to a program for several months
• Was on his road to recovery (which is an every day thing)
• He contacted me to say he was sorry and that he was going to stay in recovery and start a local 12 step program
• He then disappeared again, likely back to being an addict.

I did love him as my slave, I did offer forgiveness based on him staying clean and going to meetings.  He did not choose to honor that and so I have no love left for him.

I had a slave for became a Crystal Meth boi once before, and although I and his mother were able to help him break it (Oscar Hi!), it took months and so much pain....I just can not do it again.
It is the reason hat today I insist that any slave of mine be clean and drug free.

So those reading this please don't do drugs.

--master

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