Since I have only just begun training I haven't been exposed to too much along the lines of pain and torment from my master. Each time he trains me it gets a little more intense. He thought it would be a good idea to do hypnosis with me to start off where a special trigger phrase is used to make me more submissive. It actually worked great and felt awesome, although my master has since realized that his boi would do anything for him regardless.
So far our training sessions have been mainly cock and ball torture (cbt) and self beating with a few other "lessons" mixed in. I will grip my balls firmly and smack aggressively or punch them while he counts. For someone who has very sensitive balls that does hurt immensely. He also will have me put an arm behind my back and have me smack myself hard on the chest. He's even had me whip myself on the chest with a belt. The last time my master had me do that, I had welts on my chest through the next day. The pain of these "lessons" is very intense and at times I don't think I can take it with the extreme that's being used, but I want so much to do anything to make my master happy and proud of his boy.
One thing that was very difficult for me to do was controlled partial asphyxiation. One of my biggest fears is death by strangulation or suffocating. I had almost drowned when I was younger and since then have had an intense fear of it. When my master had me do this, all I could do was trust him. He told me never ever to do this on my own...and I will not.
What made it even more difficult was that I was doing it to myself, but this was a command that I had to follow. I of course could have invoked the safety word we have in place but I have yet to use it. The feeling was definitely different. After having beaten my nipple raw with a belt he had me edge my cock while I choked myself with my belt. He then commanded his boi to jack myself off while oxygen was slowly being drained from my body. Unfortunately I was not allowed to cum because I am still on cum control. My master decides if and when I cum and had instructed not too.
The cum control is something that is very,very hard for me. I have gone from getting off 4-8 times a day to not getting off at all for days. In fact, I even woke up this morning soaked in my own cum from cumming in my sleep because I hadn't had a release in so long. I didn't even have a wet dream; in fact there was absolutely nothing sexually appealing about the dreams that I remember what so ever.
I on many occasions now have almost cum forgetting the restriction. For example, when training my boy as my master's Alpha, I get so turned on by watching him do various commands that I give him that I can't help but want desperately to get myself off. It's all that I can do in a situation such as that to not ejaculate. To make it worse my master has told me to edge, but not cum while I train my boy.
He hasn't had to punish me for my own behavior but once, for being late to work. I do try my hardest to be a good boy, but when I mess up, my master is disappointed. His punishment for being late was that until I finished a certain work goal set for me by my master, I was not allowed piss, period. The goal was not an easy one and 3 hours later I had finally achieved it. This command was of course given after I has just had a large drink on the way to work and I already had to piss anyway....it was sooooooooooooo hard not to piss...and when I did piss my master made be go to the large men's room and piss at the urnial with my pants and shorts down to the floor. It freaked me out that someone might come in...but it made me hard and even more difficult to finally piss.
Well I need to be getting to bed. Sleep well all.
--Boi
So far our training sessions have been mainly cock and ball torture (cbt) and self beating with a few other "lessons" mixed in. I will grip my balls firmly and smack aggressively or punch them while he counts. For someone who has very sensitive balls that does hurt immensely. He also will have me put an arm behind my back and have me smack myself hard on the chest. He's even had me whip myself on the chest with a belt. The last time my master had me do that, I had welts on my chest through the next day. The pain of these "lessons" is very intense and at times I don't think I can take it with the extreme that's being used, but I want so much to do anything to make my master happy and proud of his boy.
One thing that was very difficult for me to do was controlled partial asphyxiation. One of my biggest fears is death by strangulation or suffocating. I had almost drowned when I was younger and since then have had an intense fear of it. When my master had me do this, all I could do was trust him. He told me never ever to do this on my own...and I will not.
What made it even more difficult was that I was doing it to myself, but this was a command that I had to follow. I of course could have invoked the safety word we have in place but I have yet to use it. The feeling was definitely different. After having beaten my nipple raw with a belt he had me edge my cock while I choked myself with my belt. He then commanded his boi to jack myself off while oxygen was slowly being drained from my body. Unfortunately I was not allowed to cum because I am still on cum control. My master decides if and when I cum and had instructed not too.
The cum control is something that is very,very hard for me. I have gone from getting off 4-8 times a day to not getting off at all for days. In fact, I even woke up this morning soaked in my own cum from cumming in my sleep because I hadn't had a release in so long. I didn't even have a wet dream; in fact there was absolutely nothing sexually appealing about the dreams that I remember what so ever.
I on many occasions now have almost cum forgetting the restriction. For example, when training my boy as my master's Alpha, I get so turned on by watching him do various commands that I give him that I can't help but want desperately to get myself off. It's all that I can do in a situation such as that to not ejaculate. To make it worse my master has told me to edge, but not cum while I train my boy.
He hasn't had to punish me for my own behavior but once, for being late to work. I do try my hardest to be a good boy, but when I mess up, my master is disappointed. His punishment for being late was that until I finished a certain work goal set for me by my master, I was not allowed piss, period. The goal was not an easy one and 3 hours later I had finally achieved it. This command was of course given after I has just had a large drink on the way to work and I already had to piss anyway....it was sooooooooooooo hard not to piss...and when I did piss my master made be go to the large men's room and piss at the urnial with my pants and shorts down to the floor. It freaked me out that someone might come in...but it made me hard and even more difficult to finally piss.
Well I need to be getting to bed. Sleep well all.
--Boi
You are SOOOO lucky!!!! Master will use pain in your lessons. After my second one with Him, He has only used pain as punishment, I wish He would treat me as He does you.
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